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This week was pretty good...I dunno. It was OK I guess.

I am still dealing with the "Re-Entry Seminar After-Effects", which is what I like to call them. It is just a feeling of...it is something between "holy crap! I only have 58 days in Germany left!!" and loneliness. Being alone...I dunno.

It is all the re-entry's fault! You see, at the seminar I was surrounded by people the whole time. People I loved and people I didn't like. People who are really important to me. People who I love talking to. People...I spent the whole weekend smiling and talking, talking about experiences or who or what...it didn't matter. the main thing was, that we talked. We all understood each other, because we were going through the exact same thing.

Now it is so different. Although I have people who I love and poeple I don't, people who are important to me and people I love talking to...I have everything the same, but just not to the same extent. Sure, I love the people here, but there is somehting between exchange students, some kind of connection, which...there is nothing better than that, nothing more amazing.
And then I came back, and suddenly it was back to normal. It was so amazing...than...kaboom!

I can't explain it...it was so amazing and then it sunk suddenly again. It was exactly like when I came home form berlin, from the middle-seminar. It will probably happen when I go to Stralsund in June as well, with YFU.
YFU is great and all...but sometimes it is too great, and leaves you feeling crappy afterwards.

Other than that, I am totally happy!! I am getting ready for my birthday next weekend, and for going away, to Dresden this weekend. I am really excited.
Most of all, I am excited about my birthday. Most people say their birthday was one of the highlights of the year. i don't want to set any expectations, because I don't want to get disappointed...but...yea.
I am going to make sure it is a great day, even if I do just go out with some of my closest friends. =D

Do you guys know what would be cool, for my sweet sixteenth birthday present? It would really make the day special...
If I got called up by you guys on my birthday. I would be really happy...*hint hint* No, I miss you guys, and I think you miss me too, and I would love to hear from you all again! We have spoken once in the last year...
I think Mum wants to speak to me again, after all, we haven't spoken for ages as well...but if you guys rung up, I would be happy as well...

Apart from that. About this whole thing. I know how hard it has been for you guys, in this time that I/we have been away. I know that you miss us, and it may be hard for you as well. The point that I wanted to make is that it is hard for us too. Everything will be different...again. Just try thinking about having to resettle into your home!! It's a hard thought, a bloody hard thought.
Thinking about coming home and not knowing if it will be like the old home anymore.
There is this saying in German, that no matter how far away home is, you can always go back there. And home is bloody far away. I am about as far away from home as it goes.
But we have all acheived it, some of us got through the hard times better as the others, some people at school have probably forgotten that Em and I live still, as well. Don't you think i t will be a shock coming back "home"?

OK...good. Now that I have written and written. Those things weren't meant as angry and pissed off as they sounded...I am not pissed off at all. I just felt like being philosophical. I guess it didn't work.

Oh well. I have 9 days till my birthday and 58 days until I come to Canberra again.
Do you think you guys would come and see me at the airport, like...as a welcome back? I would love to walk out and see all of you...it would be the perfect end. To see you all, drop my hand-luggage and run into the arms of my Mummy, then all my friends behind her. I don't know why I am even thinking about this, planning how to come back home, but...I guess, would you guys want to come to the airport at 8am on a Friday in the school holidays?? I would love it, so talk to my Mum and each other about it. =)

I have to go now. Dinner. And I have written enough for now. Wish my lots of luck and fun in Dresden. I'll report about the beautiful city when I get back.

Adios, Ciao, Tschuess,