Friday, June 23, 2006
Ach ja. I have done alot in the last few days...I am really exhausted and my head is throbbing like nothing else. It feels like someone is hammering it constantly. But that's enough of me complaining.
Let's see. First thing I wanted to say is that I ate a world-champion bread roll yesterday, and I still don't feel like a world-champion. Apart from that, I don't think Australia has more of a chance of winning now that I have eaten the before mentioned bread roll. Pity.
There is such a great atmopshere here in Germany right now, because of the soccer-world cup, and especially because Germany is doing so well. People are driving around with flags on their cars, blowing in the summer wind. People ahve tatoos and stuff on their faces and have the flags draped around their shoulders, it is great to see them all actually being proud to be German. In the past few years it has been really hard and alot of people have said they aren't proud to be one, but now the attitudes have changed. I am in Germany at this great turning point, which is this world-cup.
On Saturday night I went with Florian and a friend of his in a theatre and watched this dance, which was really good. It was done by the ballet troupe, but it wasn't ballet. It was good though, I really liked it. After that we went into a cafe and talked for a little while, then went home.
The week at school has been pretty normal, to be honest. I have been busy writing tests and things, which is always alot of fun. (Not)
On Tuesday and Wednesday were the music-nights at my school, and I performed there with the Jazz Combo, which was really great. I stayed yesterday and watched the whole thing, but as a result I am dead today and I just want to go to bed, although it isn't even 9pm. And I slept for four hours after I got home from school. I didn't go to Jazz Combo rehearsel and hockey, I slept because I am so dead.
Now I am here.
To tell the truth, I am so confused right now. I don't know if I want to come home or not. I am feeling half half right now, which is really weird. Like being torn between two things two posts or something. On one side, I am so excited about coming home. You guys have no idea what that means to me, being able to see you all after a year. I am really excited...I guess I will never be able to explain it to you, but it is like...I don't know. A year is a very long time to be away from home and to not see family and friends.It is unbelievebaly long.
But then there is the pain that comes with leaving. My friends and family here. I know I haven't got such a connection with them as some people may, because I was really only 4 months here, but they are great friends no matter what. Having to leave is a realy bummer as well.
About college...I am applying to go to Narrabundah. I always knew that I wanted to go there, ever since my family told me how great it is there...and I want to find out for myself.
I hope you guys aren't pissed off at me for going away from the group, and from doing something different. I hope we can still do stuff on weekends and stuff, because it would be really shitty to lose you all.
I just need the independence and space sometimes. I have been away for a year, and have survived. Having had done that, it as showed me that I can do it. I lived in another country, in another family, went to a different school (which I will be doing) and found more friends, and I didn't even know the language! I was able to do it without even knowng the language, I think I can do it again. I now know what I am capable of and what I am not so good at.
Anyway, I have no idea why I am writing this. I just wanted to tell you all I am applying to go there. If I actually get accepted or not is a different story, but I hope I do.
That school and Lake Tuggeranong are also the only schools with German, which is a subject that I must do, no matter what. Because it will be easy to get good marks.
And I know what I am going to do, if I get in, the subjects and my majors and stuff. I am so excited about the future!!
When I get back I am also going to do WEX, and I am really excited about that. I am going to do my work experience at YFU in Sydney, and I am so looking forward to it. I don't know when, but I hope sometime when more people are doing the WEX. When are most people doing it? Can you guys ask for me, because I would really like to know!!
The other thing I wanted to say is that it is now past 9pm and it is still light, like it is 5pm or something. Yesterday was the longest day, and the sun rose at about 5am and it still wasn't dark as I got home, which was at about 11pm. The sun was gone, but there was still light in the sky. It is crazily long, but I love that the days are so long, because it gets really depressive in winter, when the sun rises at about 9am and sets at 4pm. It's dark the whole time, which does nothing for the mood.
That is about all...I hope you guys are all doing well. I miss you and am really excited about getting home (and going to England with Emily!!)...I can't wait to start the next part of my life. =D
Lots of love and hugs,
Vera was here at 4:38 AM
