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Well...long time no ocean.
I just made this split second decision to go onto my blog and write something.

As I am sitting here, getting ready for Emily's party (mentally...not physically, of course), I am also trying to get that annoying English short story draft/plan done. It just isn't working.
See, for those of you who don't know, I have to write a short story for English, consisting of a setting, conflict/crisis, moral, plot etc etc. It is quite hard and I can't do it. So I asked Mr Dunn, my teacher, and he said he would give me the extension I asked for until Monday. Then he wants to see my plan.

My problem is thus:
I can't write stories with plans. I just get an idea and then I write, and I take the story wherever my emotions take it. My personal emotions and experiences play a big part in my stories.
Now I am being pressured into writing a story and I just can't. Call it writer's block or whatever. But I can't do it and I don't know why not. It's so annoying.

Anyway, this has naturally created a big conflict of the mind. I have been thinking about it all day and it is just getting worse as the day progresses. Maybe I will write a story about someone killing annoying teachers.
I don't want to write anything too...weird, incase he thinks I'm weird for it. I don't want to write a love story, those are the things I despise most, with fantasy stories coming in a close second.
I guess I'll have to get down to it tomorrow...and stick with one idea till the very end.

So, what else has been going on in my life? Not much. I went to my college the other day, to pick subjects and it just felt right. That is where I am suposed to be. I felt like spinning around hugging myself when I stepped out of the car, I was full of this nervous happiness and when I got inside I just started smiling, inside and out. It was a big relief. I can't wait to go there, I am really very excited about it, about everything.

I also played my first hockey game last night. It was great. It felt so nice to be back on the field, with the stick in my hand. I feel so much more confident playing hockey than I do anything else, it's great. It felt great to be sweating all over and to be...I guess maybe this is like a drug addict shooting up, it's like I'm an addict and starting back up again is the best feeling in the world.
The hockey field is where I should be. I love it.

The weather is warming up, Christmas is getting nearer and my new year is approaching. I wonder what I'll be doing this time next year. Partying and studying hard for tests, I presume. I hope it's all I think it will be.
Secretly I can't wait to get away from my current school, friends, and even most of the teachers, who are all crowding me, not giving me my own space the breathe and to think, not giving me my freedom which I so crave.

Myabe I should get ready physically for Em's party now...I have to leave soon and haven't given anything the slightest bit of thought, unless it involves trying to find out ways I could scam off one of my fanfics as a short story, or actually writing one. I'll update about the story situation soon. Don't worry, this isn't the last time you'll hear from me.